My last post was a bit depressing, I know. It was difficult to write, and even harder to read back. But I felt better for writing it. It purged me of the negative thoughts.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m still feeling an immense lack of motivation right now. I do not feel inspired to do anything creative right now. The important thing, I believe, is that I’m not attacking myself for this lack of creative output. Sure, I don’t feel good about the whole situation, because creating is my number one way to keep myself mentally well. But conversely, I’m refusing to make myself feel worse, by bemoaning my current inability to pick up my pen and write or draw.
I hate the term writer’s block with a passion, therefore I never use it. For me, the term suggests you can’t think of anything to write. I don’t think I’ve ever felt that way, exactly. But I have certainly felt an invisible barrier preventing me from creating. And that’s what I’m experiencing now.
As I said in my last post, this current drought began as soon as finished the last edit of my novel, The Black Rook. That project is currently out of my hands, while I wait for the publisher to review my edits. And so, until then I don’t have anything to do for it. That should feel like a relief, but because for most of the year that project was the main thing I was working on, that work coming to an end meant all of my work coming to an end.
And so, I’ve decided to roll with the current way I’m feeling and shelve my creative works for a few days. I am going on a little city break to Liverpool from tomorrow, so I’m hoping that can serve as a bit of a mental reset.
Sometimes I find the best course of action is to distract yourself with something that has nothing to do with what you’ve been struggling with. That way you can temporarily forget about the struggles, and go back to tackle it with fresh eyes. I need a little bit of that right now.
Of course, I’m not saying I am moving away from my creative work. These next few days will simply be a means to stop and breathe, so that I can be more productive in the near future.